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My family and friends took me to a slapdash indoor carnival-esque event for children. With dark concrete floors it thoroughly failed to look inviting. Everywhere was occupied by tents and single rooms which I presumed contained amusements. I glanced into the door of one room as I passed by and saw a child sitting in a chair at a table in the center of the room. The room was full of red light and nothing else. He had his elbows on the table and his head resting sadly in his hands. He was silent. Suddenly David Roma was beside me among the crowd of people, and I joked to him about the child, implying that he might be thinking "I don't even have parents. How did I get here?" which made us both laugh. There was a Catholic mass scheduled in a large room with beige linoleum tiled floor. The people appeared to be largely Polish. I was called up to do a reading from a huge book at a podium. The priest pointed to my section, which was a short poem, which I had tremendous difficulty reading. At one point I realized that it might be in Latin. Attempting furiously to read with variations of squinting with and without my glasses, I simply could not read more than one word. So I took my glasses and slammed them on the floor, enraged by my blindness. They broke in half. I spent a great deal of time asking people for a strip of cloth and tape so I may reattach the frames. I had brought four of my crystals with me to this indoor carnival, including a football sized quartz [which I do not have in reality]. These crystals hold superstitious protection. I kept losing them and finding them elsewhere. During one of my quests to find a lost crystal, I was in a hall that was half a wall and half a spacious tunnel of glass, through which distant fields could be observed. I was with Corey and others looking out this glass. The sun was rising in a very erratic manner, sliding up and down and even laterally. The moon was also jumping around, almost eclipsing the sun for a split second now and then. It became apparent that the sun and moon were being controlled by a disrespectful child in one of the activity tents. These erratic movements were definitely that of a kid. Suddenly there was a flash beyond the horizon, and a circular glow expanded toward us. "Hah, nuclear explosion," I joked. But before I even finished that sentence I felt the frantic alert that I might be killed within the next few seconds, and I braced myself. I later tried to escape this indoor carnival facility, and I wandered into another area that was a quiet but unclean veterinarian clinic. Some staff members in lab coats with clipboards walked by, ignoring me but making me feel very out of place. I decided it would be best to get back to the indoor carnival where all the people are. I was later back in the crowd, and a heavyset girl kept trying to chat with me as though she was flirting. Then she jumped onto my back and I was forced to walk around carrying her. Karen was nearby and I was aware that she was angry as she watched me carry this stranger. I carried her to a stone balcony overlooking the grassy fields, and my body collapsed from the weight. As I knelt, I spotted another one of my crystals, my most prized calcite from childhood, to my great relief, sitting right on top of the small stone balcony wall.